Posted in Thoughts for the Day on March 16, 2010 by The Raven

So today is a beautiful, sunny day here in NY and while outside walking a rather hyperactive and time wasting dog I decided to do a few things.

1) I’ve decided that our dog loves the outdoors and purposely holds her business so she can maximize her outdoor time.

2) My Summer time nemesis, the bees are back in force. Gah! The ground is crawling with flies, and the bees are like.. All over. It’s insane. Guess it’s a good sign though because means Spring is here.

3) I really should get back to work on my writing. It’s been awhile since I’ve done a serious sit down session with it. I mean I worked on a couple pages the other night, but didn’t get too much done. And I started a fan fiction based on ‘Heroes’ but even that kind of stopped.

I’ve plenty of things for inspiration right now, I really don’t know why I’m dragging my feet. Maybe it’s because I’m worried it won’t be any good, that things won’t really go anywhere with it. Can’t really say. I know it’s frustrating though, because this second book of the series has been a two year project mainly because it was going to be the first book.

But I figured that characters needed to be evolved first, that the readers needed to know where they came from, who they were before the events of the second book because so much happens to them then. This first book titled ‘Blood Born’ is going to be the book that pretty much tells the origins of the characters, who they are, what they do and what relationships they have with one another.

As it is I’ve had to change the way one character is in the book, and right now I’m wanting to change another character. Why? Well um.. Because I wasn’t entirely satisfied with how he acts/reacts in the book. I mean there are some aspects of the character that I love, but I really do want to tweak it a little more. I figure if I can sit down and really make myself serious about getting more work done on these books that I should be able to finish them up quickly.

Right now the second book is nearly finished since I had so much done on it before deciding I needed to make a book explaining everything. And this first book has about ten chapters or so that are done, I just need to tweak stuff here and there and get the danged plot finalized. No one said being a writer was easy, and I’m beginning to see why. Sometimes it’s no fun trying to wrack my brain to figure out what I want to do.

So.. Here is to luck, inspiration and suddenly finding my lucky muse of the day.


The power of addiction.

Posted in Thoughts for the Day on February 23, 2010 by The Raven

As I sit here watching last week’s episode of Celebrity Rehab I find that it’s really one of the most emotional of all the episodes that I’ve watched since starting to watch the show back in Season 1. And I’ll admit I’ve cried off and on watching this show because I literally cannot imagine the things these people have been through, the things that drove them to addiction and what their lives were like while being addicted. However this episode has made me cry far more than any of the other episodes combined. This season of Celebrity Rehab (for those who don’t watch it) has Mike Starr, the former bassist of Alice in Chains- a band who I have loved since the 90s and to this day still love.

On last week’s episode Layne Stayley’s mother appeared with Mike Starr’s mother at a kind of family group session. For those who don’t know much about the history of Alice in Chains, Layne was the Lead singer of the band and had one of the most recognizable voices of that era and in my opinion not only was the sound of his voice hauntingly beautiful but he really conveyed so much emotion. I think that was one of the main draws to me that really made me a fan of the band. Not only did he have an amazing voice but he was surrounded by a lot of talent in the band members that were around him. During this family group session, Stayley’s mother spoke about the loss of her son- and Mike’s best friend- and the words she spoke were not only moving but very eye opening.

I can hardly believe it has been over 7 years since I heard about Layne Stayley’s death, and even now the thought of how long it has been is still very shocking. But watching the interaction between Starr and Stayley’s mother, you could see how much this affected the both of them on so many levels- which obviously goes without saying as the loss of a loved one is never easy for anyone.

My heart goes out to the families of those who have lost someone to addiction, as well as to everyone who is suffering from an addiction or even those who know someone suffering from an addiction.

-I would like to dedicate this blog post to the Stayley family, as well as to the families of those who have lost someone to addiction. Just remember there is always hope, there is always help and as long as you are able to support someone in getting the help they need to beat their addiction life is always possible.

Part 1: “Introductions” (‘RP’)

Posted in Roleplay Posts on February 15, 2010 by The Raven

‘So.. I woke up this morning thinking everything in life was going to be great. Boy was I wrong. Nothing could have prepared me for the events that would occur as I tried to sleep before a quick shift at my job. I can say that being thrown from a third story window and waking up on the sidewalk with little memory at first of what happened is a terrifying thing…

Especially when you know you should have been dead.

Remarkably I had healed any wounds that I received though I’m not sure how that happened. The one thing I do know… I need help.. And I’m hoping that the people I turn to, can give me that.. It’s time to see where this life takes me..’ -The beginning of the Alexa Poe journey.

And so it begins..

Posted in Almost Uncategorized on February 14, 2010 by The Raven

As I’m sure those looking at the blog have noticed, it has undergone a name change as well as a bit of a face lift. The blog changes aren’t done yet so keep checking back periodically to see what else I am doing. I’ll try to make Twitter updates when something major is changed so for those who DO follow me on Twitter be on the look out for that.

Also I started my FIRST full fledged Fan Fiction story last night. I’m pretty excited about it though I know someone will tease me about how they have ruined me. *eyes person in question*. But regardless it’s going to be a tricky story to write given what I have in mind. Needless to say it’s will involve a lot of researching and asking questions etc. But I look forward to it. The best part of writing for me is researching and gathering the right information so I can actually begin my writing process.

Heck I spent a good 3 months researching vampire mythology so I could begin writing my books. Don’t think that I’ll have to spend nearly that much time researching for this story however. Though all the talk about finding out the history of things has got me contemplating what someone suggested just recently in the RPG I play called Bloodletting. The person behind a character I was talking to suggested that I turn the story of my own character’s life into a book. Mainly because she has a very rough childhood that turns her into a Slayer, and an even bigger turn of events that makes her into the one thing she had always hated the most.. A vampire.

Oh.. Don’t let me forget.. This character was also born in the 1800s and was only just recently turned. Yay for magic! Haha.

Anyways.. Those are the updates so far. I’ll try to post a snippet of the character in here in a bit of an RP format (the one from the short story not the RPG) so you can get a feel for who she is before the story is finished.

Save Heroes.. Save the World

Posted in Almost Uncategorized, Random Musings, Thoughts for the Day on February 9, 2010 by The Raven

Or at least this is what I keep reading on my Twitter account *grins*.

For anyone who knows me you know that I was never really that big a fan of the show ‘Heroes’ and it was mainly because of the constant brooding of the cheerleader. I’m sorry but my idea of a fun time wasn’t sitting for an hour and watching some chick scowl for most of that time. However.. Things change.. And you meet people who are into the show and kind of talk you into giving it a second chance.

Now.. I’ve become a fan of one of the actors of the series. And while watching it and knowing a bit about the character he plays to start with, I was thinking. Okay.. Maybe this won’t be SO bad after all. Course I’m sitting there around Thanksgiving time and was watching a special episode and I’m watching the credits roll by.. And I see the name “Ray Park”. Instantly a “HOLY CRAP” moment happened and needless to say the show just gained a few billion points in awesomeness.

So now I have two of my favorite actors in that one show. Ray Park and Zachary Quinto. So now I’m hooked. I’ll admit it.. You have the epically evil Sylar (or well I guess he was epically evil, right now I’m not so sure) and then you have Edgar who I’ve really not seen too much in the episodes I’ve watched, but still.. I’ve been on Twitter a lot lately and I see this whole #saveheroes posts going around which in a way makes me think.. ‘Uh oh.. Don’t tell me I just got into this show and they are going to cancel it, or it’s up for seeing if it’ll be renewed or not.’

So I’ve been on a kick to help (though it likely won’t be a lot) to try and get people to help with ‘saving Heroes’. There’s been a petition started and their goal is to have 1,000,000 signatures to help with the cause. So what I am going to do here is post the link in my blog and hope that some of my readers who happen to drop by will sign it and pass it on to people who love the show.

It only really takes a second to sign it and you can log into the petition via your Twitter account if you have one. So it’s pretty simple to do.

Save Heroes, Save the World Petition

P.S: Figured since I posted this I’d stick with the spirit and add a little extra flare. Enjoy :D.

Just a random blog.

Posted in Random Musings on August 16, 2009 by The Raven

F.Y.I: Ray Park could soooooooo kick Captain Jack Sparrow’s pirate arse. It’s true.. He’s a ninja, he makes ninjas cool again.. Don’t believe me? Freaking watch the G.I. Joe trailer!

MY blog, a nice rant

Posted in Rants on August 8, 2009 by The Raven

Don’t like the things I post? There is a simply solution to those things. If it’s something you don’t want to read, then don’t. It’s not like someone is forcing you to do so. Besides this blog is meant for my thoughts, not to please people of the world with things that are shockingly original or haven’t been talked about before.

And this is for everyone out there who reads my blog. If you don’t like what is posted, then simply don’t read it, it won’t bother me. What bothers me is when a person who has the maturity of a thirteen year old feels the need to leave vulgar comments because they find something ‘unoriginal’ and ‘boring’ normally I don’t care what people post as comments, but when they become vulgar and down right rude when I’ve done nothing wrong to said comment other than post something they don’t like? That’s a different matter all together.

While I’m all about free speech and the like, I do have a limit for my tolerance of people. When I changed my gaming blog over to a personal blog, I was hoping to have something light hearted not to be cussed out because someone thinks it’s funny when it’s clearly not. (Especially if their vocabulary is lacking). To think that being rude to someone is funny is just down right disgraceful. While I may have a good sense of humor, it is lacking right now with a certain person who I will allow to remain nameless as I would at least like to show a bit of class. I really can’t tolerate it when a person tried to gain ‘popularity’ points by acting like that I really can’t.

And no this is not what I’m trying to do now. What I am trying to do is explain that you don’t have to read something you see on the internet it’s your choice, and if it’s something that you don’t like afterwards, don’t take it out on the person who wrote it. It’s not their fault you wasted time in reading it, it’s yours because it was your choice to read it.

Basically.. If you don’t like my blog? Don’t read it or don’t come back to it. Saves a lot of trouble for everyone.