Projects

So today is a beautiful, sunny day here in NY and while outside walking a rather hyperactive and time wasting dog I decided to do a few things.

1) I’ve decided that our dog loves the outdoors and purposely holds her business so she can maximize her outdoor time.

2) My Summer time nemesis, the bees are back in force. Gah! The ground is crawling with flies, and the bees are like.. All over. It’s insane. Guess it’s a good sign though because means Spring is here.

3) I really should get back to work on my writing. It’s been awhile since I’ve done a serious sit down session with it. I mean I worked on a couple pages the other night, but didn’t get too much done. And I started a fan fiction based on ‘Heroes’ but even that kind of stopped.

I’ve plenty of things for inspiration right now, I really don’t know why I’m dragging my feet. Maybe it’s because I’m worried it won’t be any good, that things won’t really go anywhere with it. Can’t really say. I know it’s frustrating though, because this second book of the series has been a two year project mainly because it was going to be the first book.

But I figured that characters needed to be evolved first, that the readers needed to know where they came from, who they were before the events of the second book because so much happens to them then. This first book titled ‘Blood Born’ is going to be the book that pretty much tells the origins of the characters, who they are, what they do and what relationships they have with one another.

As it is I’ve had to change the way one character is in the book, and right now I’m wanting to change another character. Why? Well um.. Because I wasn’t entirely satisfied with how he acts/reacts in the book. I mean there are some aspects of the character that I love, but I really do want to tweak it a little more. I figure if I can sit down and really make myself serious about getting more work done on these books that I should be able to finish them up quickly.

Right now the second book is nearly finished since I had so much done on it before deciding I needed to make a book explaining everything. And this first book has about ten chapters or so that are done, I just need to tweak stuff here and there and get the danged plot finalized. No one said being a writer was easy, and I’m beginning to see why. Sometimes it’s no fun trying to wrack my brain to figure out what I want to do.

So.. Here is to luck, inspiration and suddenly finding my lucky muse of the day.

The power of addiction.

As I sit here watching last week’s episode of Celebrity Rehab I find that it’s really one of the most emotional of all the episodes that I’ve watched since starting to watch the show back in Season 1. And I’ll admit I’ve cried off and on watching this show because I literally cannot imagine the things these people have been through, the things that drove them to addiction and what their lives were like while being addicted. However this episode has made me cry far more than any of the other episodes combined. This season of Celebrity Rehab (for those who don’t watch it) has Mike Starr, the former bassist of Alice in Chains- a band who I have loved since the 90s and to this day still love.

On last week’s episode Layne Stayley’s mother appeared with Mike Starr’s mother at a kind of family group session. For those who don’t know much about the history of Alice in Chains, Layne was the Lead singer of the band and had one of the most recognizable voices of that era and in my opinion not only was the sound of his voice hauntingly beautiful but he really conveyed so much emotion. I think that was one of the main draws to me that really made me a fan of the band. Not only did he have an amazing voice but he was surrounded by a lot of talent in the band members that were around him. During this family group session, Stayley’s mother spoke about the loss of her son- and Mike’s best friend- and the words she spoke were not only moving but very eye opening.

I can hardly believe it has been over 7 years since I heard about Layne Stayley’s death, and even now the thought of how long it has been is still very shocking. But watching the interaction between Starr and Stayley’s mother, you could see how much this affected the both of them on so many levels- which obviously goes without saying as the loss of a loved one is never easy for anyone.

My heart goes out to the families of those who have lost someone to addiction, as well as to everyone who is suffering from an addiction or even those who know someone suffering from an addiction.

-I would like to dedicate this blog post to the Stayley family, as well as to the families of those who have lost someone to addiction. Just remember there is always hope, there is always help and as long as you are able to support someone in getting the help they need to beat their addiction life is always possible.

Part 1: “Introductions” (‘RP’)

‘So.. I woke up this morning thinking everything in life was going to be great. Boy was I wrong. Nothing could have prepared me for the events that would occur as I tried to sleep before a quick shift at my job. I can say that being thrown from a third story window and waking up on the sidewalk with little memory at first of what happened is a terrifying thing…

Especially when you know you should have been dead.

Remarkably I had healed any wounds that I received though I’m not sure how that happened. The one thing I do know… I need help.. And I’m hoping that the people I turn to, can give me that.. It’s time to see where this life takes me..’ -The beginning of the Alexa Poe journey.